Pride and Personalness

Anyone who is or was Mormon knows that you don't talk about LGBT stuff, at least with other True Believing Mormons. When it is spoken about, it's only in the negative, and with non-affirming and clinical terms such as "same-sex attraction". The "H" word, unless you're talking about heterosexuality, is not said. Even heterosexuality isn't spoken of, since it's implicitly (and explicitly, through the churches discriminitory policies) seen as the norm.

My parent who is LDS is no exception to this. They, along with the rest of my Mormon family, don't know about my sexuality (along with most other aspects of my life) Despite considering myself "out" since I was a teen, I never told them. Much like one wouldn't go up to a random person on the street and say "Hi, I'm queer" I didn't see the need to tell them.

The one time I spoke up about LGBT stuff was when I, knowing the answer but asked anyways, if I could go to the Gay Pride parade, which landed on the weekend that I was legally bound to see them for visitation. I forget their exact response; something like “Absolutely NOt, that is completely inmoral, and on a SUNDAY??!” We were on a public street, in line for them to use the bank machine, so I used this opportunity to say quite loudly “Why not, are you homophobic? What do you have against gay people?” In retrospect I should have said "You know I'm not a Mormon, and I'd like to go with the female friend I'm trying to get with" (Sadly she's straight. Like Kinsey 0 straight. So is her equally hot friend.)

I forget exactly what else I said, since this was years ago, but I was trying to shame him. I didn't have that result, since my 'lifestyle' is a 'sin' to be condemned and it was their 'duty' as a parent to shield me from 'it' (if only for two weekends a month)

I tend to feel uncomfortable around any LDS family member since they have an judge me, along with anyone else who is not an active, tithe paying member (When I was a young child I recall many conversations on why so-and-so's something-cousin removed *gasp, shock, horror* left the church.) Either that or they have an ulterior motive. Every time I see them is yet another opportunity for them to “win me back to the flock”, not that I was ever into what was being shoved down my throat in Sunday School and Sacrement anyways.

Yes, I know Pride has been over for a while, but I try to make every day gay; by that I mean happy, but some gay sex is great with me.